i want to die

i feel myself drifting away further and further away from the people on my life, every single person. My friends are kind of turning on me and i don't really know why, i want to make new friends and every time i try talk to someone i get awkward and clam up, or my old friend comes in and takes all the shine. my boyfriend gets upset with me over a lot of little things, i just don't know what to do anymore. even my family is acting like i'm too much to be around. i can take this any longer, i want to be gone. please help me and give me advice because i don't know what to do with myself anymore honestly