Need opinions...

I got married over a year ago. I love my husband very much and I've never been so comfortable with anyone. Unfortunately I am still not happy. I work 40 hour weeks, do all the laundry and cleaning (he does occasionally clean), I cook dinners, I pack his lunch every morning Monday-friday, I go out and pay all the bills (while he does contribute by getting the money too). For awhile I was a housewife and I didn't mind doing all that because I was picking up the extra weight while I was not working. Now that I work so much, usually getting more hours than him, I am tired of doing it all. He has a very hard job working outside and he tends to disregard me being tired or sore because I truly believes he thinks just because his job has more labor, that he works harder/more than me. I bust my ass all week and have to deal with rude people in my face the whole time too. On top of that, I can only get him to give me massages MAYBE every now and then. And I am not meaning once a week or something. Maybe every 2-3 months or so. I rubbed his 3 nights ago and got nothing in return. He has a tendency to blame the problems we have on me, and when we argue he gets so mad that I honestly feel afraid of him. Not afraid he will hit me, because I know he won't. But afraid of the anger and yelling and what he will do with it. My husband his full of vengeance and will wrong you for something you did some time ago. He calls me a bitch often and says I speak with venom. Even when I don't. He misunderstands. A lot of the times he does not want much to do with me. No cuddling really anymore, not many kisses or hugs, and not many I love you's before bed.

He is not always bad. He does occasionally surprise me with flowers or sweets and sometimes he will pick up the house some for me. And really he is very funny and smart and when we go out I feel protected.

Now for the next thing..... My husband and I were talking awhile back and he had said he wouldn't mind if I had a boyfriend. Well a little bit later I took him up on that. I started dating a guy I work with. The only date we ever got to go on was him coming to my house for the evening (my husband was out with his friend Hannah). The only reason we got to do that last night was because he up and made plans with her without me included and left. They really were just friends, but do to the situation he was looking for someone too. He was supposed to see this other girl he had apparently always liked and she kept blowing him off.

Anyways he ended up saying he want comfortable with the situation and made us break up. Which I think he only did because nobody really wanted to go out with him.

I love my coworker. While I should not. I do. I adore him. He treats me like a princess and has been for a long time now. He makes me feel loved, valued, and most importantly to me, confident. I do not feel like a depressed corpse with him. Is it wrong to turn somewhere else when your heart is hurting? Would I be better off giving up my comfortability to be treated better? What would you do if you loved someone but you felt like you could love more and be loved more?