guilty..

does anyone else feel guilty not working? I worked my first pregnancy, but got really sick between gest. diabetes and then preeclampsia which ultimately ended in me being induced. (I was scheduled to work that day). So i didnt work my second pregnancy and it went soooo smoothly other than the fact i had literally crippling anxiety. I couldnt be alone or leave the house which made things very difficult. Fast forward im now 17wks with our 3rd and i feel super guilty about not working. We can pay our bills but its basically living paycheck to paycheck. and j cant help but feel guilty. I am a diabetic and take pills now for depression and anxiety. So theres the cost of that. I just feel so horrible about it. I feel so expensive and useless. :( i quit working mostly because of my anxiety but also because j was exhausted always. Like i literally sleep while my older 2 are at school. Im super slowly getting my energy back.