behind everything

Sometimes I feel like I'm not adequate enough for this life. I want to feel free and do what makes me happy. I feel like I'm stuck and i don't know how to get out...maybe it's just hormones talking but it's hard to surpass. I've had 2 miscarriages already and all I want is a baby, my baby. I feel like my husband and I are on two different levels but I know that he will love him/her... maybe I'm just stupid for thinking it but it's what I need...