Gender Sadness

I know it's stupid. And my hormones to just mellow out. But we truly thought it was a girl. Even the ultrasound specialist whose been doing this for 30 years and is sought after, said he was fairly certain it was a girl. But it turns out it's a boy. Another boy. And I wanted my princess so bad. I didn't cry but my insides shook like I was. This is my last baby. My body can't do it again. I have female issues and other things. Especially since this pregnancy has been horrible so far. I've been in pain and so sick I've lost 13 pounds. I'm on medication. It's just crazy.