I was in one for two years. I was constantly belittled and felt like I didn't matter at all, and even relapsed with the self harm I had struggled with previously because of it. I got out of it, I have a wonderful relationship now with someone who is so much better to me. But some days it's just hard. :( Every "normal couple" fight we have makes me shake in fear or have panic attacks. I'm constantly terrified of history repeating itself. It's trust that's been taken away from me forever. I was raised in an emotionally abusive home, and left in that abusive relationship, because I didn't know any better. After my life of being shoved into walls, screamed at while I cried in corners or closets, and struggling to get out bed each morning, sometimes it just feels like too much. It still affects my daily life, but I try to not let it take over me or control my current relationship. Anyone else dealing with the after effects of abuse? Anyone know how to?