trying to stay STRONG!!!!

After months and months of testing with ovulation kits, detecting ovulation and still not ending  up pregnant I promised myself this month I would not test. I wanna cave so bad. I had my s.i.s done today. Dr. said the uterus looks beautiful and ovulation has not happened yet.   I wanna Buy opks so badddddddddd. I'm not even sure why? I guess it's just the fact of knowing that it's happening. Ughhhh the struggle is real