Feeling low

Jessica • Mommy to two angel babies 👼👼 Kaidon Elijah & Kendyl Elizabeth
So i had my miscarriage in May of this year. My cousin and i were pregnant at the same time & our due dates were one day apart. She had her little boy today and i can't help but be jealous. I mean yes I'm happy she had a healthy successful pregnancy but why didn't i get to keep my daughter!? Just feeling very down about this 😢