37weeks and partner calling me fat...

I didnt know where else to go or be sad and get my probably over hormonal feelings out, i am in bed in tears about my body image. I feel like i am literally about to pop can hardly move around, feel very unattractive without my partners straight forward in put yes i can see i have gotten fat from this pregnancy and definitely wont go straight back to my size 8. Ill be lucky to fit into a size 10-12 after my daughter is born.

It all started because i was tagged on facebook in a memory from 2 years ago (when i was 18) i was very slim and i showed my partner and said yuck i was too skinny back then... he immediately got angry at me for saying that and burst out and said "why cause your fat now". I laughed it off and said yeah i guess so. But i was hurt at that very moment and probably cant even talk to him the same. I dont want him to see me naked anymore and just feel like i should be hiding. I know i am pregnant and so blessed for my daughter, but for him to say that truly breaks my heart. Not to mention when he comes in the bathroom while im showering and points out my nipples that have gotten darker and the areola has grown and say yuck. I definitely cant change my boobs/nipples... i can lose weight. I honestly feel like ending it because obviously i am so unattractive for him now because of this pregnancy and dont even want to hear the remarks once i am not pregnant.

Also his mate was jokingly teasing him yesterday and he was deeply offended and i immediately jumped straight in to say how aflttractive he is to me and how i love everything about him. I guess i dont want anyone feeling the way i do about my body now. We have been together for 5 years (since i was 15 and he was 16) and ive never heard him talk to me like this before. It is heartbreaking.

I guess I just needed to get that off my chest. Is anyone elses partner like this or has mine just completely lost anything for me? Oh yeah not to mention he has been watching alot of porn and i dont even know the last time we have actually touched eachother. When we do kiss its just a "i have to do this" not anything like i want to. Maybe its me feeling so unattractive that I am purposefully avoiding touching him and realising he doesnt try to either. I guess i will end up being a single mum cause there is no way my body will go back to normal and never realised that he must of only cared about my "looks" not my actual personality or anything. Most of you women have such supportive sweet guys that do so much for you, yous are blessed! Love is amazing (or well i used to think).