First Pregnancy & Miscarriage

Kyris
My first appointment was two days after 8 weeks. On 10/27.... I started spotting 10/26 at about 8pm, and then at my appointment they couldn't find the baby during ultrasound and the probe was covered in "brown spotting"
I spotted that day, into the evening, and have been bleeding ever since. I have another appointment this week 11/3, but I don't even want to go... 
I feel I already know the answer, and I've accepted it, between the cramps, the clotting, the bleeding, if my baby is there it's truly a miracle. 
Here's to praying the pain and bleeding stop and a brighter tomorrow...