can't get maternity pictures

This is my first pregnancy & I really wanted maternity photos! Like who doesn't want the beautiful pregnancy pictures 😭 Being on bedrest is really hurting my heart. My doctor is seriously keeping me in the hospital until January. Freaking January. I have to be here until I have her! I'm so emotional. No thanksgiving, Christmas, I miss going outside, I miss sitting on a toilet, it's like my life is over. This pregnancy has definitely taught me a lesson. I'm getting my tubes tied! I'm 18 & done with babies after this. I don't deserve this torture, nobody does. & NO I will not change my mind after I have her. If I want more I'll just adopt.