I love my husband more than anything. He's my best friend but we are SO different it's almost toxic for both of us. I need to be told Im loved he gets the I love you message when I pack his lunch or make dinner. He has OCD that feeds my anxiety. And when my anxiety spikes I cry when his OCD acts up he becomes insensitive. He is a night owl and I'm an early bird. I'm just sitting here tonight about to crawl out of my own skin with him our bedroom hanging a door at 10:30 at night when I just want to lay down and spend time with him wondering how this is going to play out in the future. We are sooo different and almost toxic to each other.