I just passed my baby

Wow. What a feeling to experience. I've been in the process of miscarrying my first pregnancy. I found out on the 26th that my baby was 4 weeks behind in grown. No heartbeat. I grieved a few days, and just wanted it to be over. We had friends over on the 28th to carve pumpkins. That helped.

Monday the 31st the bleeding picker up some. By Tuesday I was 100% positive I would miscarry. Wednesday morning and evening I had super bad cramping. Then Thursday came around. Worst pain ever. I left work early, came home and spent a few hours in my bathtub, cringing in pain. Passing lots of clots, some around the size of a quarter. 😬

Friday I stayed home and worked in my kitchen all day. In the evening I started having major pressure in my pelvic area. I was able to get to sleep. This morning the pressure was worse. I spent a few hours on and off the toilet, trying to push, hoping something would happen. Eventually the bleeding stopped, I couldn't figure out why!

Finally it did. I felt like it just shot out of me. I had instant relief. Followed by what I imagine to be lots of backed up blood. I sat there in disbelief. Based on my choice of words, my husband called out to see if I was okay. Asked if I needed to go to the hospital. I'm fine.

I passed my baby this morning around 10:45. I am sad but I'm ready to move forward with my life ❤