I feel so gross!

I'm 21 weeks and I've gained...wait for it... 30+ pounds already!!!!! I saw a video of myself yesterday and couldn't believe how fat I've gotten. I went a little overboard with the first trimester cravings. I've put my bad eating habits in check but at this point it's too late to lose the bad weight I've gained. I feel so fat and ugly, and even though my husband says he loves my weight gain because it means I'm growing a little baby, I still feel like I'm not pretty enough. It's hard to fit in a work out when you work and commute for 14 hours a day still. By the time I get home all I want to do is eat and sleep. It's been a real self image struggle. So many women boast about working out or eating healthy, and you see their pictures on here where it looks like they've just strapped a pillow to their stomachs and the rest of their body hasn't changed a bit. Meanwhile I feel like I've expanded everywhere including my face and arms. I wanted to feel like a glowing mother to be, but I just feel gross all the time