alone

I used to be the girl whom everyone knew and everyone invited.. very social. & on the 2nd year of my realtionship things got bad he lost his job turned to drugs and I supported him. 3rd year he got a really good job left his bad friends and now we have apartment... things have gotten better but I feel so alone, I miss having friends I miss being social. I feel really sad and idk why. I have so much anxiety of repetitive actions that I accuse him before he's even done anything it's getting to the point where I feel drained. I don't know who I have become . Yet this the most financially stable I've been in my life . My job is amazing and the less trouble I've been in.