relationsh*t

Okay so basically I've been in a relationship for 2 years and 6 months. Idk what to do I broke up with him because I'm just not happy anymore. We don't communicate or anything. He's only home on weekends cause he lives in Wisconsin for work and when he's here all we basically do is argue and when he's gone for about a day we're good then boom arguing over text again. Don't get me wrong he was an amazing guy for the first year and a half and after that everything went downhill. I just can't stop going to his house when he comes home and seeing him or sleeping with him. Obviously I love him to death but I'm young I want to experience other people..(he was my first)  But any time I try to talk things out he gets all pissy or just doesn't know what to say or acts super shitty to me. And it's hard because he was my first love.. and I do care and I love his family but shit has just gone south and I don't want to be alone wtf do I do at this point... Like when I go to hold his hand in public he will pull away and I obviously get mad and then he will eventually hold my hand or hug me or whatever. Well not only that but it's always about him and his stupid truck don't get me wrong I understand he's a guy that's what they love but he can buy shit for his truck and can't even make me a homemade card for my birthday.. nothing and it hurts I put in my all into this relationship and I feel like I'm taken for granted he doesn't treat me the way I want to be and I feel the need to find attention else where I really do... I miss the old him but I guess people change and maybe it's time for me to just stop talking to him but when I do all I do is cry... I hate this so so much someone help... and yes I've talked to him about it a million times and nothing changes why honestly I hate love i hate this and trust me this isn't even the worse part