Keeo having a breakdown

Keep having a breakdown because of the situation I've been put in. My idea and outlook of love has completely been changed, nice people finish last.. I did nothing but love and respect my husband and still got abused while he is treating himself now spending money on tons while I'm here scraping the pennies together to get things for the baby. Which he doesn't care about

Yes before you ask I've stopped talking to him. So its just me and only me. The pathetic woman who doesn't want to get up till mid day and cries all the time, me!