Sex life after rape.

Hi! I'm new here. Forgive me if this post is out of line. I'm a rape survivor and I've found it extremely hard to get a normal/functional sex life back since then. I lost my virginity to rape. And was brutally raped again back in 2012. Because of all this I've never had an orgasm, I'm almost 26, and anytime I am intimate with someone I immediately detach immediately as if a transaction has occurred.  Has any one experienced this, or have any advice? Thanks!