The guy who broke me. 

       The summer before my freshmen year I met my first actual boyfriend, well I didn't actually meet him then. We met at a friends house the September before summer started. We were going to the fair that day and my friends cousin brought him. Let me tell you this boy was a real crowd pleaser. We would talk occasionally through out the time before we started dating. But the week after school got out my cousin came to stay and we went to vacation bible school and it was at a church I had went to for a few years. And one of my guy friends brought him. We started to really hit it off. A few days in to it I grabbed his hand for the first time. From that point on he had a piece of my heart. The day vacation bible school ended he asked me to be his girl friend, we went on a hay ride and when it ended and we got off the ride my younger brother was like do y'all date yet and the guy who broke my heart said i don't know do we? And I said yes so then he kissed me. Through out our relationship we had typical arguments but I really loved him and still do. The day we broke up is the day my whole world turned up side down. I begged him not to go. I talked him in to letting me have one more last kiss and to say good bye because I thought it would bring closure but boy was I wrong. It hurt me more than anything because I kissed him and hugged him and I didn't want to let go. He made me, he said Haley it's over and he pushed me away. I just sat there and cried. What else was I suppose to do move on? Yeah right here I am 3 years since that day and still feel the complete same way. The worse thing is that he has came back a raw times but we would have to be a "secret" because he was embarrassed of me. One day I was at one of my brothers games and he came and we sat together it was raining and he kissed me and oh my god it felt as if we had been together the whole time. He's done this a few times , I guess that one reason why it's so hard to let him go. But this time will be the last time I let him break me. He said he had feelings for me but he was messing with other girls, maybe I shouldn't care but it's him so of course I do. Sometimes I wish I would have never met him. But it happened and we can't go back in time, sometimes I wish I could because this pain is so hard to bare. 

Can someone help me ??