More bummed than I thought

Katie
Y'all!  I was NINE days late. 9 days. I took a test on Sunday and it was negative but by yesterday and still no AF I just figured it had been too early to test. 
But guys, AF showed up this morning. 😫😩😔
My man and I aren't TRYING per say, we just aren't preventing. (It's been three months now) But damnit, I was shocked at how disappointed I actually was. 
I have a 12 yr old son from a previous relationship. He was a surprise, so I've never experienced this 'trying'/not preventing stuff.....it's a roller coaster ride. Sharing this because I know some of you can relate.