my birth story

On November 27th, I woke up around 6am to painful cramps. This was normal for me because she was so low, it always hurt. I took a bath, and fell asleep until 8:30. I then was having some more pain but it felt like it was because she was moving from side to side extremely low. I put a heating pad on and fell back asleep until 9:40. I woke up, wasn't in pain but thought I had to poop. I went to the bathroom and noticed a very light burning sensation when I pushed. I put my finger barely inside to see why it was burning and I could feel her head. We immediately got into the van and started rushing to the hospital that was 40 minutes away. I was crying, not from pain but because I was only 24 weeks. At this hospital, she would have an 80% chance of survival because they were equipped to save her. At 10:06, I didnt know if i should hold her in or push so i pushed in fear that the cord was around her neck and if i held her in she'd die. She came out, and my husband called 911 screaming for an ambulance. 15 minutes later, they showed up and got us into the ambulance. Before they had showed up, my husband was doing cpr on her, she was barely breathing. The ambulance never tried to save her, they actually called the hospital and said she was not alive, which wasnt true. This hospital that had a team on standby to save her, did not do anything because the emts told them she was dead. I know 100% in my heart that if they hadn't been so terrible, she would have survived. They had a team ready. Or maybe if i had kept her in a little longer..