Stop making excuses for yourself. You did wrong. Own up to it and move tf on. You don't get to decide whether or not someone should forgive you. You don't get to decide whether or not you hurt someone. You get zero choices in this predicament, as you've already made one too many bad ones. Gtfo of here, and find some self respect (AND respect for others too apparently 🙄). I can't even y'all. I am so tired of reading all these "I cheated, she cheated, he cheated, he/she ('cause you just don't know anymore) cheated" stories. GET A GRIP, Y'ALL.