HELP!

So... I've been on and off being vegan for about 2.5 years. BUT I've stopped and since been buying meat at the store but it never feels right. EVER. I've seen so many people posting on here that you can't fully love animals AND eat them too, and goodness do I agree. So, I need yalls help. How do I not cave and eat meat?! I don't do much dairy whatsoever because it just grosses me out. I just want to do it and not lose my mind because I'm doing it. It's really important to me it's just so hard to not be lazy and find the alternatives.