This Is It...(Vent)

I've been trying for a year now and I'm tired.

Had surgery to check for endometriosis and the dye test, which showed my tubes were working fine. Then went on clomid for a month because my day 21 test showed I wasn't ovulating propetly...then pregprep, prenatal, and geritol (liquid and multivitamin). Taking ovulation tests almost everyday to track and sex every day or every other day. I feel like I'm failing my husband and I'm trying not to stress about things; but I see no hope.

I had pink brownish discharge at 4dpo and thought it may be Implantation but I see that was a lie. Unsure what it was but it never occurred before.

I felt tired, Boobs sore, and mild cramping but now I feel it may be signs for AF.

Sigh...done trying at this point. Tired of praying about it, tired of getting my hopes up,...just tired.

Guess I'll just focus on being a better stepmother but I just really want my own. I hate to say this but his child is a reminder that I can't give him what he wants (more kids).

Baby dust to all of you!