Weakness

Why are so many boys nowadays controlling and manipulating. I thought that things were going to get better after I explained to my guy which wasn't even ever really my guy that my mom no longer liked him was mad at me for talking to him and that I got advice from ppl on here that I should leave him that things would get better but it's almost like it's some game and he doesn't care anymore about me. I have done so much for this dude. I tell him how he hurts me and he says I don't have a right to get mad because if things I have done (I had sex with 2 guys while me and him were talking, not dating). He got mad this morning because I would fall back to sleep and then wake up and answer the text cause I was still tired and so then he was like what was taking me so long to reply. Then later on after he got over it he text me telling me he missed me and all that. So he then took about 20 minutes to text me and even tho I was still tired since I was babysitting my cousin I stayed awake while my mom and sister looked after her and he didn't text back. So I got up to put my cousin to sleep and checked to see if he had texted back and he didn't. And the sand thing is that I was expecting it and that he wouldn't care that I was busy trying to give my mom a break. I called he hung up the phone and then told me to not call him and to just leave him alone that he didn't care. He always claims if I don't answer I'm talking to someone else and that's not it. I feel like I'm too weak to leave when I know that's what I have to do. I just don't know what to do. I'm at such a loss I wish I could be as strong and I want to be and as I make myself to be but I keep allowing myself to be broken and that's not okay. I just want to find someone who will care about me at the end of the day. Not this 😓💔💔