HSV-2 Delivery

I talked to my doctor today about how I feel about having a vaginal delivery with genital herpes. I have read the pros and cons and see the risk is very low of the baby contracting it during delivery if they have me on medication to prevent an outbreak. But the risk is still there and I feel very uncomfortable delivery vaginally and putting my baby at risk. I've only had it for about a year and I get outbreaks at least once a month usually more. I told my doctor I would feel more comfortable putting myself at risk and having a c section rather then putting my baby at risk to have a vaginal birth. She immediately brushed off my opinion and told me they would have me on medicine from week 36 on and if I have an outbreak during labor they will give me a c section. Can they force me to put my baby's health at risk? I'm seriously worried and really would rather be safe than sorry. Knowing me I really will be the 1 in 15,000 that still gives it to my baby without an active outbreak. I don't like this at all and I feel like a piece of shit mom that I even would have to think about putting my baby through this. I don't understand how some of these people are getting elective c sections and I'm told I can't when I have a legitimate medical reason for requesting it....