i think this is my month😍💖

i think im actually pregnant this month!!! i just feel different and i had some spotting a few days ago and i NEVER spot, i think it was implantation bleeding!! i also have lots of creamy discharge which is super uncommon for me. My AF is due on 12/30 so I'm trying to wait until wednesday to test, this is my 7th cycle trying but im feeling super optimistic (: dont know if i can handle another bfn this month. anyone feeling the same way?