ttc rainbow baby

Me and my partner was ttc for two months once I took at the IUD coil and a month of the contraceptive patch and we wasn't actively trying with fertile dates and all that. I fell pregnant but I miscarried at 5 weeks. The excitement and joy I had was so much and the pain felt for the loss was large. We started actively trying once the bleeding stopped after 4 days. I bought opk sticks and used them once I had my first period post miscarriage. So my first cycle with opks have come an gone as AF arrived yesterday.  The frustration I have is so much as i fell pregnant so easily before and now it seems to be so hard. I know the time will come again and I need to probs just relax and let it be but the wait each month is long. But here I go again cycle #2 for my rainbow baby