New Year's Eve break up
Last night I broke up with the guy I've been seeing/sleeping with. We hadn't talked in two weeks after he told me he thought I was getting to attached to him. All I had said was I missed being in his arms when he told me that. I tried to make it work, make it more than a sex only relationship. He said yesterday that he thought I was fine if that's all our relationship was. I told him I thought I could be but in the long run I can't. That I want to be with someone who wants a real relationship with me. I think yesterday was the first time we really talked. At some point one point he sends me this
I told him I wasn't in love with him but I thought there had been a possibility. I told him I've felt lonely and empty too but I was still willing to try. I had doubts about us but after yesterday I realized I really was developing feelings for him. We said goodbye to each other and I thought that was it.
A couple of hours later he texted me again. He had the week off and he was at home almost alone. He was trying to get me to agree to spend one more night with him. I told him it wasn't a good idea and that we needed to move forward and away from each other. He agreed and I thought that was it but than a few minutes later he sent this
A few minutes after this he send another message asking if he could come to my place and make love to me in my bed so I can always remember him. I told him no. I also pointed out we had said our goodbyes and I ended the conversation.
I've just spent most of the day dealing with everything. I guess I should be happy that pregnancy test was negative but I'm still not. Maybe my weird dreams were telling me we were going to end. The good part was we weren't together too long. I just need to take a little time.
As far as my other ex (he messaged me a few days ago), I've decided not to reply back. No matter how much I still love him, still wish it had worked with (especially because we both really want children), I know I can't stay stuck in the cycle of him wanting me one moment and than pushing me away the next.
Sorry this post is so long, but I really needed to let all this out.
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