So CONFUSED 😐

Um... so I have this ex named Lewis... we were on and off for a year and 5 months... so of course im going to always love him.. But he treated me so wrong... The problem is I have this amazing boyfriend named Dee that I also love so much! But tonight I've really been thinking about Lewis ... I know he has a new girl ... and I have a man of my own .. I really have no contact with my ex I'm 100% faithful... I really didn't start thinking about Lewis a lot til last night because I thought my bf was cheating but totally wasn't! I just need help... my bf lives 3 hours away and we don't always see each other and my ex lives in town... I didn't even get to see him on New Year's eve or news years... so ladies please help me! Idek what to do?...