How do you keep it together?

Diana • 34 and healing from 2 back-to-back losses. Still TTC #1
I'm 33, turning 34 in June and husband and just finished unsuccessful month #3 of TTC. I'm doing everything (tracking cm, fertility monitor, temping, preseed). How is it this hard? I'm so disappointed and feel like I'm running out of time. Say whatever you want about having babies later, but it's harder and there are more risks, especially when you want more than one. How do you handle the pain and disappointment? I cried almost all day today. I need some encouragement.