My heart is hurting. We broke up because we both got drunk on New Years and I went through his phone. He was flirting and told a girl "sup cutie" that likes him and- ugh. I'm so upset and sad and I wanna cry because I feel like WHY? If you cared about me so much and I'm the best girlfriend you've ever had why?!! Why why why why? I wanna be so strong like "fuck him, who needs him!" But I'm sitting here asking over and over why he would still be trying to be on dating websites and flirting with girls. When he tells me that I look for something to get mad at.. he tells me "I don't know why people always think I'm flirting"... BECAUSE YOU ARE. Ugh I hate him so much for breaking me and hurting me when I care to much to even look at another guy without thinking of him in my mind. I HATE YOU But I'm hurt and I miss you but I don't miss what I know about you now. I just need to here some comforting words. If you read my last post you probably knew everything was gonna hit an end.. the pain is so hard on me. It makes me hate, and I shouldn't be in this hate. I should be greatful, I should be thankful and looking forward to the happiness I'll have but I'm not. I wanna sit here a cry till I'm bones.