So am I crazy?

 I've been with my fiancé for the best part of a year and a half and it's amazing. We connect on a level that no one has ever been able to match.

 Lately though, I've realised that she's made me reassess and completely revert on some strongly held decisions for myself, the biggest of which being babies! 

 Now for years, I was adamant that I didn't want kids. Nothing against them, the idea just held no appeal to me. Then she enters my life and the whole idea has become so appealing that it's literally overwhelming. 

 I can literally imagine all the things I'd be able to do as a parent. From our little girl (I'd like my first to be a girl) trying ice cream for the first time, to learning to swim in the little armbands. Even as I write it puts a smile on my face. But I'm not even just unrealistically idolising it. I can even imaging the bad times, scooting up so our poorly baba can sleep between us, Comforting her when she has nightmares and reassuring her of her worth when she feels down because of boys.

 I'm a 20 year old male and it's purely due to self control and timing not being right that we're not trying 😂 am I crazy for feeling this? I'm still young and my viewpoint was so different only 2 years ago?! 

 ps: All fathers should read to their daughters and take them out on miniature dates to teach them how a gentleman behaves