°Living with the STI every jokes about...

I was diagnosed with herpies at the end of September. I'm not crying every night anymore but I'm terrified to get close to a guy and I'm having so much trouble getting closure. I have a breakout and I go into a depression.. sometimes before I even have a breakout. I don't know how I'm suppose to be the same person I want to be and to be able to still have fun while I have herpes. I'm single and 18... how am I suppose to get to know someone and have someone care for me now... I feel like I'll never find someone now. And I'll just always be alone..