feeling frustrated

I been trying to be positive lately, just go with the flow, don't over think anything, trying hard to be healthy and organized, today wasn't the best but I tried! Just a little bit ago after eating, sitting down my heart started to race an I got hot, I was thinking uh oh not another hot flash! Don't wanna pass out! I calmed down, took deep breaths cuz I had to go let my husband in from outside since our building is secured. Everything ended up being ok, but I'm sitting here crying cuz I hate when I feel like that. It's scary and so annoying. Just needed to let this out 😞