I feel pathetic

I can't even go one night without him being in bed with me, I miss him so much. I know I sound like a sad piece of crap but when hes argued with me and decided to sleep at his own house without me I just feel like I'm empty and so alone. I have had so much happen to me in the last 6 years, between my neighbours attacking me, my property and my poor dog I have fears that stop me from sleeping when I'm on my own. So here we are at 8am and I've had no sleep and all I want is for him to give me something, anything, just to make me feel better and feel like he cares :(