I miss being pregnant

I miss all the good and the bad "side effects" of being pregnant i lost my son at 14 weeks im physically okay but not emotionally ready to be pregnant again... i wish i could have my baby boy back. All i ever wanted was him he was the chosen one and he was even planned it was my first pregnancy so its even sadder because im scared if in the future i get pregnant ill be worried of it and really protective im feeling so lonely idk what to do anymore. 😔🙁