the toughest year of my life

I don't if there's anyone listening to me or not ... but in the past year I found out that my dad had cheated on my mom has a son and my whole life has been a lie ... every memory is now changed in my mind... everytime he didn't come to my school for an accomplishment I had he was with them and ...

Then obviously I got depressed so my ex who was abusing me in every way couldn't bare the tough that I had something else in my life other than him he made me tell him what was going on in my life and six months later he cheated on me ... meanwhile I was buying him souvenir from dubai ... i looked through every store and send him pictures of the backpaks due to his demand ... now it's been 8-9 months from that everyday my parents fight with each other and they won't get a divorce because well I'm from iran And wemen don't have the divorce permit unless their husband is a drug addict or can't support the family financially and the mony of course wouldn't be spillited in half he can give my mom how much he wants and he wouldn't file for divorce because he wants to keep us as his prestige is the most important thing for him.

I don't know what to do they've been fighting for 5 years in the last 2 I know what he has done and I had to go through the break up all by myself because they are not even understanding of changes and me having a guy in my life and I think every man who realizes what my father has done whould do the same to me ...

By the way I can leave them even though I'm 20 and have a steady job and go to university because in iran girls are not allowed to ...

I hope someone would listen...