Hope?

So I am 6days before my period. I know still like a day or two early to test I'm just so anxious as I had a miscarriage in Sept and had a hsg dec1 and my first round of clomid 3-7 cycle days. My nipples are tender hard and errect way more often then they ever been. But my breasts itself isn't. My cervix has been low/medium since after ovulation soft and closed. Are they good signs? I know when you get pregnant your cervix rises but some say it takes longer for it rise. And with your period your cervix should get harder. Am I grasping on to nonexistent hope bc I'm testing negative and going crazy even tho I know it's still early. I really just want this to be my month. Please respond and be brutally honest. Thank you in advance