I feel stupid because I got on it because of the guy I slept with and since we were thinking of having a lot of sex but I haven't seen him in a while. When I had the chance I blew it and told him to hangout with his family instead of me. So I haven't seen him since we had sex and that's been a month and a woman has needs too. He took my virginity and I haven't felt attached or anything but I want more sex and I haven't seen him and it's killing me not behind able to have sex and because of my past I don't masturbate I think it's so uncomfortable and it'll just trigger past things I don't want to happen. So is that normal?