I need advice please! long story.

So yesterday was my birthday party, not mt actual birthday. My husband decided to throw it for me but ended in me doing all the work. We haven't been as sexual active as I want to be, meaning we only do it maybe 2 times a month. I try everything. I try suducing him and he just pushes me away. His friend came to my party and I over heard them talking about girl in porn. Him saying which girl he likes and whatever. I wouldn't care about that if We were sexually active more. He has told me he doesn't do anything from watching porn to even masterbating. It just upsets me because I feel like I'm so unattractive already and the fact that he doesn't want to even make love to me, he would rather watch fake girls upsets me. Also we just got married in September. I told him I'm done because there are others things of course that make me feel overwhelmed but this just pushed me over the edge. Please someone help was I being too emotional? Idk we have been struggling with this for years it feels like and not to mention I am only about to turn 22. The time where sex should be exciting and full of passion. Ours is literally him saying "okay I'll put it in you but it's going to be quick" like he obviously doesn't want to do it. He always says when we do have sex that he did it for me? Like why is that just for me? It should be for both of us? Please someone give me advice.