Help with body image, dieting, eating problems

So for a long time I've had, as I call them, "food problems." They're not bad enough to be a disorder, but my weight, or lack of it at times, has caused me a lot of anxiety which led my depression. It seems I work so hard to eat good and work out a lot but it just keeps getting worse. I look like a boy no matter what I do and honestly at this point food just depresses me. Does anyone have any tips to improve my figure or get my head around not hating myself in general? Honestly I really need help