Help and encouragement needed!

First, I have to say I love all the support this group has to offer. This is my first post, so I'm a little nervous.

I'm 22 years old, have been with the same man for 5 years, and we currently live together. I was on birth control for about a year and a half, switched between 2 different pills during that time, but they made me unbearably moody and crazy. I had no sex drive, and I just hated everyone. But now that I am out of college and on my own, I just really don't want a baby! Lol so I would like to go back on the pill. However, now that I'm over 21 they want to make me have a pap smear before I can start it again. I'm really just not okay with it, as a sexual assault survivor who suffers from anxiety and PTSD I just cannot have some random person in such an intimate area of my body.

Suggestions??