Please dont judge me...

I love my baby already more than I love myself even at only 9 weeks. I was not ttc but I never prevented myself from getting pregnant I'm 24 and my SO is 30. We are more than happy about this baby. He is the most supportive dad to be. I feel blessed that I can get pregnant while there others who are less fortunate. I feel so bad that I'm even complaining,but I needed an outlet. I have been miserable for the past few weeks. This "all day" sickness is horrible. I cant take it anymore. Im in pain. Im tired. I've been having bad dreams and I've been stressing in my head more than I can let on. I'm in a pretty decent situation in my life. I work so does my SO we have our own places. We have family. Heres the thing, Im scared to death of whats going to happen once the baby is born. I want us to still love each other I want to get married.

Im sorry ya'll Im rambling,but it feels better to let it out. Im sorry if I sound ungrateful.