my boyfriend and i just broke up after two and a half years and to say the least i did not want it to happen. we did more talking about it and decided we should try and be individuals for awhile first and should try not to talk. my head knows this is the best decision for me and i know i shouldn't keep putting myself through a relationship that i'm trying so much harder to make work. my heart is so sad and hurts so bad and wants to talk to him and fix things right now. i've been meditating recently and cried while meditating on it which is the first time i have ever felt overwhelmed while meditating. it just happened this past weekend so it is still fresh but i just want to fix things and love him but i know i shouldn't. i'm trying to distract myself which i also feel isn't fair because i think i need to face it and grieve and search for myself... he was my best friend.