im so scared

long story short, my boyfriend is in icu in a coma. how could such a wonderful day end so horribly ? he told me i love you for the first time earlier that day, we were cuddling on a rock in central park. i feel so empty. his mother wont let me see him, she told me i better stay away and that shes taking him back to oregon with her once he wakes up. i just miss him so much...ive never loved anyone like i love him, i dont think ive even been in love for real before him. i just dont know what to do anymore...