I feel so defeated...

My boyfriend and I have been TTC since my miscarriage in Novmeber. Since then I have had two regular cycles and AF is due again on Friday. I swore up and down this would be the month that we would get our BFP. I took a pregnancy test today and it was negative. I know it's early but I feel so defeated. The first time conceiving was so easy and I'm feeling so hopeless and stressed out at this point. I just want to break down and cry right now.