37 weeks pregnant and coping with loss of a parent

I am 37 + 4. And my dad passed away very unexpectedly. I happened to have my weekly appointment today and the dr said that everything is fine with the baby. But I'm just worried about myself. I just don't feel as excited for the baby as I was. Things have also been difficult with my some of my family and the decisions that we had to make which has lead to some unpleasant conversations, so much so that I almost hope I go into labor so that I don't have to go to the services and won't feel guilty about it. I even deactivated my Facebook account  bc everytime I go on I'm worried what someone may post or say. I hate feeling this way. I mean it sucks losing a parent but then to have to deal with family issues along the way just makes it so much harder. I have been trying my best with everything that has to be done but I just feel like I am not doing a good enough job. My husband has been amazing through all of this and I'm sorry thankful to have him, he just doesn't understand why I am so worried about what others think so it makes it hard for him to relate to me. Sorry for the rant I just needed to get it off my chest.