I've gone from confused, to mad, to trying to understand, to trying to be ok with it and now I'm just sad. I don't like pity parties but right now I feel like I'll never have a baby! 3 years TTC and it feels like forever. My hunband and I so badly want a little miracle baby of our own and right now I feel like it will never happen. I know and truly believe God has a plan for each and every one of us, but I can't figure out what mine is and it really hurts.