Guilt

I see all these women excited about their baby and becoming a mothers - and i myself am happy for them. However when it comes to my own pregnancy and journey to motherhood its all the oppsite - im not excited and at times i dont want to be having a baby. Im scared- me and my partner havent had the easiest time with this transition and it has effected our relationship - i cant help but expect a sad future. I feel so guilty saying it out loud - i wish i hadnt gotten pregnant nor ever gotten to know this side of my partner. Im scared out of my mind and so so worried. What'll happen?